Monday, December 6, 2010


I feel pretty today
I'm so very happy
I'm invincible
Shut the fuck up
Gimme Peace
Gimme Peace

You can't create shit
You're powerless
Let that shit go
Are you okay?
Yeah I'm fine
Peachy keen jelly bean
Fuckin liar
More fuckin lies

I'm building
Building pain
But still I smile
Living in denial
Loopty loos in my head
Just wanna cry
But I gotta smile
You're so fuckin fake
But dying within

I'll be okay
I'll be okay
I'm fine
As I break piece by piece
Uncertain how many more times rebuilding with broken blocks will last
Time spent creating ramshackle-ness
I want to be sturdy
This plastic is
It seems durable
Such a lovely piece of art
A wall and a mask
How great, but still small enough
Maybe if I hide enough from myself
I'll be free
Always seems I cave in
Fighting with myself
A constant war I wish didn't exist
The concerned citizens try to make Peace
But I'm in too much pain to let them
I don't want to admit I need help
Because I don't
But I really do
I know this
At least a part of me does
Guilt overwhelms me when my feelings disturb others Peace
I'd rather let it kill me then kill them
I'll just smile
Even if it hurts
Call it suicide
Crazy I could be okay with it
But selfishness is out of my Being
So here I am self-destructing
Beneath this pretty piece of art
I painted with the ideas I only choose to share with them
Forcin myself in a
Box I created for myself
Thinking I have to live up to it
Or I'll be my own disappointment
I push you away, when I really need you
To proud to ask you to
Hug me, comfort me
So inside I hope you'll get the picture
I act like I don't want to share with you how I feel
But more than anything
I need to hear that someone cares
That someone is there to help
Me break these restrictions I've placed on myself
Created my own judgments and expectations of myself
That I can barely deal with
I go away hoping you'll run after me
Just hug me
I need a touch of another
So the bottled up tears will fall
I just need you to push me
To accept that sometimes I don't live up to this thing I've made
This machine I've made myself out to be
I need you
I need you
Maybe I just need myself
Maybe I just need to look at myself
Maybe I don't accept myself as much as I once believed
I keep being dishonest
The mask is so comfortable
At least I've convinced myself that
It's prettier than reality
But it's killin me
I keep cutting myself
Cutting my self-esteem
Insecure in the faith I have in it all
Insecure in the faith I have in myself
Keep convincing myself this smile is real
The audience buys it
But I want them to call me out on this scripted reality tv
I wish I wasn't this way
I just want stability
I just want Peace
I wanna be Free
So desperately
Nothing more important
Freedom from this self-constructed mask
I wanna feel the sun and rain on my own skin
But I still refuse
I can't help it
This mask is what I'm used to
Beastly living

best friend

you've been so good to me
i could never describe my gratitude
for all the times you've been there when I felt like giving up
there were so many times tears welled up in the beds of my eyes
as i masked my true feelings
i could feel the pressure build up
waiting for the volcano to erupt

but here your graceful hands comes
and reaches into my soul
calming the storm
recreating my emotions
be calm
slow and steady
take a deep breath
inhale the love
inhale the peace

you kept my darkest secrets
even revealing things about myself to me
by just conversing with you
you were such a great listener
so patient when i was in denial about how i felt
there was always enough time
you always had time for me when i didn't even have time for myself

you are such a blessing
i swear you're an angel
you really are
you are proof of god's existence
my best friend

your loyalty astounds me
i've never trusted someone as much as i've trusted you
you never let me down
you never let me down
when my head hangs low
your energy wraps my spirit in a beautiful hug
you made me feel free

you freed me of the pain
you freed me of the hurt
you were there through it all
and you still are

i never felt judged by you
for whatever i shared
you smiled as i did
you cried with me
you were the greatest comfort
more comforting than mama's cooking
you be missin durin the holiday season
i can never describe what you mean to me
i feel like i need to create a language just to describe
my appreciation for your existence
each letter here is a kiss for all the times
you had enough time

better than the best
and yet still magnificent
i'm just talking
but i think you know what i meant
you seem to be the only person who understands
it's like you are me
you're my best friend
i love you

Never let go

Yesterday I was with my sisters for the weekend before they turned 12. I'm so goofy so I just started tickling them. It was like we transformed into kids again for those moments. Here we are 12 and 19 rolling around on the couch and carpet laughing until we were red in the face. You feel the jolts of the body in each laugh, giggle... so beautiful. Ongoing childhood revisited...but I don't want to lose that. Why should I re-visit it? That means I have lost something. I don't wanna lose the laughter, give away the fun out of life just for a corporate job in the name of "success". Moments like these...tickling each other to death, hair all over the place, crazy silly voices coming out of your mouth, genuine, loving hugs--those, THESE are the moments to Live for.

Real chances to connect. Days like that are what we remember. Those are what give life meaning. I feel we so readily become serious with age, I think it's more expectation than anything. If I tickled a friend my age, I would probably be told to "grow up"... my question is, why? What's the fun in that? Where's the beauty in that?

Sure...growing is a part of life. but is growing up and losing that inner child who has such a fun, limitless view of life what we should be aiming for?
I don't wanna lose that. I wanna be 37 years old, my sisters 30 still running away from me at my mom's house because I'm going to tickle them to death. Moments like that are unforgettable. Moments like that are priceless.

Friday, September 10, 2010


The other day in class my teacher asked us what is "sacred" to us...?

I thought it was an interesting question...

it's a rather interesting word to use.

When I think of the word "sacred", the first thing I think of is

so what exactly is Sacred then....

Religious people?
Religious Places?

To me--no.

is Sacred.

With quantum physics, we learn everything is made of energy at the most fundamental level and We are all the same.

That goes for every single thing in existence.

Everything is consciousness
and consciousness is God.

So then, We are all God--everything is.

And if that is the case...if God is sacred.
so is everything else.

Now it may sound a little simple
maybe even "too" simple

but just take the idea of power we put behind the word "sacred",
now imagine if everyone believed AND acted like everything was scared.

imagine how much we'd care about others and other things
imagine how we'd take care of everything
find the beauty and wonder in everything.

To me, that is what the New Earth will all be about--seeing the Heaven
the Sacredness in it All.

I wish We could come to treating the world with the immensity of what the word Sacred holds...

Everything would change
We would have Peace on Earth, forever...


Let's face it everyone LOVES sex.
Society Loves sex.
Men Love sex.
Women Love sex.
Teenagers even seem to Love it these days...

So many people are battling sex addictions and are sharing their bodies with anyone who seems interested.

I personally believe society's obsession with sex, is a Spiritual outcry for how Spiritually thirsty and empty We are. So many young girls, fatherless, seek that void of a male in their Life by surrendering her body to any "man" that claims he cares about her. (see my post "She's just a ho!" for further detail on this specific example) Men seem to be just fucking any girl they come across with no respect for themselves all to get recognition from their friends...fill their own void or deal with their own stresses...

Sex used to be sacred...I don't know what happened.
Okay maybe, it never was sacred--but in my eyes, it should be.

Religion tries to in a sense, control sexual activity by labeling it a sin...Which I think is bullshit even in itself because so many devout religious people are there fornicating with someone right in the church.

First of all, sex is not a sin.
And you shouldn't not have sex just because your "religion" tells you not to.

Sex is an essential part of human Life and a beautiful gift--BUT I think what the idea of what some religions were attempting to do, is keep it pure or sacred.

But repressing a natural human desire is going to do just the opposite of what is intended...

(or what I hope was intended, but you can never be sure what people's intentions were when creating something that they used to control society....but anyways...)

another issue is that people equate Sex with Love.
and that surely, is not accurate at all.
even the term "making Love" is not a great way of terming what sex really is...

Sex is an expression of a Love that is already there.
Sex doesn't create the Love.
Sex doesn't MAKE the Love.

Sex is the naked truth.
It bears all.

It is letting someone in literally, with no means of words
it's completely creative

you are letting go

you are letting that person into your spirit, heart, and soul
without even realizing the depths of your act
it takes a great amount of trust
trust of that person
and of yourself because you are allowing yourself to be 100% vulnerable for
however long that amount of time is.

You truly are giving a piece of yourself to that person and becoming One with that person for that moment

I don't care how much casual sex you have
how unattached you feel to that person
you've connected with them at the deepest level
without even realizing it

you've connected with them at the most fundamental level

and This is what makes Sex sacred...this is what makes it special.
it is true Oneness.

And when you invite ego and unattached people or feelings into it
you may feel nothing
and this not just a reflection of how you "supposedly" feel for that person
it is a direct reflection of where you are Spiritually...

how can you become One with another God / Goddess for a Moment, during the Now...
and feel completely Numb?

YOU have to be Numb...not them
your Spirit is numb...

which means you have something you need to fix with yourself.

There should be no way you should have sex and not feel connected
and if that's the case, you should reflect on why you are allowing yourself
to have sex with someone you don't feel connected with at all in the first place...

You'll find it is an issue with YOURSELF that you need to deal with.
if you want to just because you're "in the mood" for it,
this means you are serving the ego--out of touch with Spirit.

if you don't feel complete without sex, this means you need outside sources to make you feel Loved.

You have a lack of Love
a lack of Spirit
a lack of God because you keep seeking outward.

When you have looked within--you'll have balance and won't have sex with just anyone
because you will understand just how beautiful
and Spiritual it really is...

You will see how much of an Art of the Universe it is...

And you will want to create your heart delicately
with your entire Being.
Mind, Body, Soul

This is the depth of something we have perverted.
this is what God intended for it to be for Us...

if it wasn't--why would it be a possibility to feel like this?
It wouldn't Be.

But--it Is.
So reflect on where YOU are...what YOU choose.
what you FEEL.

Everyone is not worthy for you to share your body with, your expression of Love is a blessing.
You need someone to appreciate it.

It really is a gift.
a gift of trust
of Love
of the Universe.

Do you not want someone to appreciate this gift?

Do you not want someone to appreciate your Love?


Okay, the word "marriage" seems to be a pretty big topic I've been meaning to discuss. It seems our society s obsessed with it, and yet we have so many failed marriages--divorce. I don't really want to say "failed", but that's sort of what society views them as.

I think this is because people get married for the wrong reasons. But before I even get into that...What is marriage anyways?

Why do people get married?

Well according to the internet it can be defined as the following

legal relationship between spouses: a legally recognized relationship, established by a civil or religious ceremony, between two people who intend to live together as sexual and domestic partners
specific marriage relationship
: a married relationship between two people, or a somebody's relationship with his or her spouse
"They have a happy marriage."
joining in wedlock: the joining together in wedlock of two people
marriage ceremony: the ceremony in which two people are joined together formally in wedlock
union of two things: a close union, blend, or mixture of two things
"Civilization is based on the marriage of tradition and innovation."

Well it seems to me that marriage is getting recognition from people that aren't even involved in your relationship, some say so in just how serious and valid your relationship and "Love" for each other is...

Why do we need marriage licenses to get married...if it's just the joining of two people? Why does it become a legal thing? Why does society or the courtroom get involved at all?

Other euphemisms for getting married include, "tying the knot", "being tied down", "getting hitched"...etc.

Just take a second to LISTEN to those and really think about it...
since when did Love tie anything down? Since when did Love come with restrictions? Since when did Love come with chains?

All of this is not Love.
Love is an energy that flows freely through the entire Universe... I don't even know if it's possible to be tied down.

It's not physical...and if you Love someone--why do you want to "tie them down"?

Marriage isn't about Love...or being with another person you Love...

It's about ownership.

People want to be assured that this person they are with will be with them forever... and this marriage holds them to that promise until "death do us part"...

it's like you're insecure in how that person feels about you
you're insecure in what will happen in the future
you're in fear...

how can you live your Life in Love and fear simultaneously?
You can't.
It's impossible.

The thing about marriage is that, it offers no room for change.
People grow apart.

That's Life.
That's the Universe.
Everything changes.

Just because you've been with someone for 10 years...and they all of the sudden lose interest, doesn't mean that they never Loved you. And it doesn't mean that they don't Love you anymore...It just means, they Love you differently...

You've grown apart.
In that sense, when divorce is coming out of the consideration for the best of you from the idea of the potential growth that both of you can no longer give each other, it's not such a bad thing. In fact, it's rather beautiful, to be that understanding to see that you were placed in each others Life for a certain amount of time and got to experience those moments together...

Be grateful for those moments, instead of focusing on the moments you no longer have.
You can fill those with so many other things Life has to offer
or a new person the Universe is placing in your Life to aid you in more personal growth.

Am I saying all divorces are lovely? No.
But neither are all marriages...

We get into these marriages, most of the time with a lack of self-love and understanding of the ego...which may be the reason we are attracted to that person in the first place...which is nothing real at all.

and you get married and you start growing as a person and realize this person doesn't fit you anymore...but since you're married you're pressured by everyone to make something work, that really is just there to show you, that it's time for you to change...

or you see flaws in them because those are things you yourself obtain...they are reflecting what you see in yourself. that is how you were even attracted to each other in the first are living on the same plane.

With marriage you feel guilty for not being happy here because society has programmed you to think that it has to last forever since you took those vows.

but that's not always the case...

If you really Love this person and that's why you think you should get married, ask yourself why are you doing it...?

If you Love them and you KNOW intuitively that they Love you..then why do you need to throw the title "marriage" on it?

It really can complicate things sometimes because when people are married, if they start to not feel a certain way about something--they are afraid to communicate this because they took those an oath.

and people repeatedly throw the vows in people's faces...

"you said until death do us part in front of the whole church"...
or they know their marriage isn't working and they have simply grown apart but don't want to let it go because they don't want to be ridiculed by all of the people who attended the wedding...

I wish we could just stop all of this bullshit.
if you Love someone,
just Be with them.
Love them.

Why title it?
Why ask the outer world for recognition?
You guys should be in your own world...

and yes, while I know there are some financial benefits to being married as far as insurances and calls at the hospital go, but make sure you're doing it for the right reason for you guys...and communicate well between each other.

If a person wants to leave, if you guys are growing apart--don't make that person feel bad.

Thank them for freeing you--for being honest, for all of the beautiful moments you got to share in the mean time...

You guys are both growing, infinitely, and that is beautiful.
Thank the Universe for allowing you to grow with each other for awhile.
Don't fall for this mass bullshit the media is trying to sell you.
Marriage is not about being tied down.
It's not about reality.

It's became about money in society's eyes...and outside validation.
Which is something you don't need.

and if you do get married, like i said before--be open.
be accepting of any kind of change or growth
be thankful

thankful for Love.
thankful for Growth.
thankful for every single Moment.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010


Today, I wanted to write a poem about you
you were on my mind
so I took my pen in hand
and asked it to dance across the paper
how i pictured you and i in my mind
i told the ink to kiss the lines gently
but they were not restricted to stay inside the lines
because Love is Free
i let the scribbles of the pen make Music
as it tickled the words out of my Soul
in a generic description of you
i say generic because my words could never do your Being just
it's like the difference between natural and man-made
it just doesn't seem enough
in comparison to the real thing

i once was told everything is an illusion of perception
but i think this idea is false
maybe You are the only thing that exists
everything's light seems so dim with your Sun rays shining next to it
flying next to it

the outline of your body lets me travel the Universe so smoothly
like each star in the sky
playing connect the dots with your atoms
to give me this great Being
my eyes are blessed enough to decode
and see such a beautiful masterpiece
like when you first reveal Picasso's
creation to the masses
and their jaws drop in Awe
from what they saw
this is how i stand when i look at you
this is how i feel when i look at you

to see such Power and Strength
absolute Wonder
a King with wings
i just want to kiss them
and let them take me to heaven while im in your embrace
each time your words flow into me i feel higher
i dance on Saturn's rings
after i felt the moon's surface caress the balms of my feet
i skip through the Infinite Way of your Love
like a child
yearning to experience new things
new parts of You

my mind takes me to parallel Universes and different dimensions
with just the thought of your Love
revealing more Godlike ways you possess
in each step
i drown in them
your currents by submerging into the depths of your Soul
each moment
leaving me in Awe

time does not tell my heart or Spirit how to feel
because time is not real
but You, are
This, is
no clock can rule with two plastic man-made hands
the magnetic pull, electricity, of Destiny

it's funny how Love changes your outlook on day to day living
like eyes with heart irises
only seeing the positive things
pulling them in
because this Energy
you continually bless me with
is everlasting
tattooed on my Soul

i attempt to sleep
but i'm just consumed in you
excited to greet the day
excited to greet the night
your Being gives Life so much Light

i thank God on a daily base for allowing me to experience Forever
that is what You are
a Forever Being of pure Love
a pure reflection of God
to the Highest degree
even a throne is not worthy of being your seat
you are so much higher
so much Higher

the world does not deserve such a magical Presence
with all of its hate
but i am so thankful
your steps are here to Light up the world
and Illuminate the darkness
every time you wake-up
greet the Sun
inhale oxygen
take in the air
each time you breathe
each time you exhale
you release
Love frequencies
God frequencies
frequencies of Peace

altering the State of the Earth
watering Her
creating Life
sharing Life
flower petals should follow your feet
steps of Majesty
show The People the way to God

if only they could remain stationary in the air
because you don't just walk
you glide
you fly
you use your wings
made of feathers of planetary nebulae
encompassing the maps of the universe
wings unseen by outsiders
because they are You
wings on your heart
wings on your Soul
wings on your Spirit

wings of a King
the Ultimate God

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Travel &hearts




I can NEVER say this enough!!

Lately, I've just been really excited about Life. Everything has been going exactly how I want, so now I can focus on what I really want to do--travel! See the world.

Sometimes I wish I didn't have to be in school and could just do something crazy and backpack through Europe, spend time with the locals and see this Beautiful dream God gave us to experience.

Realistically, I don't know how that would pan out--I may do it one day though. Ever since I went to London, years ago I promised myself I'd go back. So next year I am planning to study abroad there. it WILL happen. (affirmation) ♥ (((+)))

As I reflect back on my life, and see how much I was into clothes and buying things when I worked before--I see how STUPID those choices were. I have about 1% of those clothes still and am left with no greater experience.

All that money I could have used to save up to go to Egypt...China...Brazil...Hawaii

&& I sit here and see people making the same mistake I did and it makes me SO sad. I understand that some may not have the funds...but i know some people that live in Cali that have never been to LA but have all the latest Js... what sense does that make?

Those shoes have gave you no Spiritual growth.
You have learned nothing new
Nothing has REALLY changed.

My how foolish we've been.
If I'm going to be a slave for my money or work really hard for it--I'm not just gonna throw it away by buying unnecessary things.

I want to use that to really LIVE.
really SEE something.
really FEEL something.

THIS is what Life is all about.
If you don't travel
you're SETTLING in Life.
You are limiting your experience.

I want to get as much out of Life while I can.

Traveling is good for your Soul--literally.

It opens your eyes.
You look at yourself differently.
You look at others differently.
You feel more connected.
You gain understanding.

You can give greater Love.
Traveling is essential, i can NEVER say this enough!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010


Here we go again
Back at square one
Somewhere I said I'd never be
Runnin away from that lil girl inside of me
A part of me I couldn't be
Hada take care of other things
Backbone of the family
The weight of the stress give it to me
What's the addition of the world to a Queen
Wears her heart on her sleeves
Each moment sacrificing willingly
For those that call on me
I told you I am God
Now can you see
We are God
And nothing is impossible you see
You get stressed and I remind you to be
Give me your pain
Hurt worries
It's okay you can vent to me
I'll take it
Lift it
Body building
Rise from knees to feet
Pray every motion of the way
Standing fearlessly
Dealing with the same situation womanly
No change of heart or spirit
Just reacting without the lies
Of the ego
I don't focus on what happened
I just do what I have to to fix it
Repair it
I can wear a hardhat
And doctor suit simultaneously
SuperWoman that's me
It's who my mom taught me to be
But even a SuperWoman like her
Needs some encouraging
So that's where raising your children well comes back lovingly
Take care of you like you took care of me
It's the ways of Love
Constantly reciprocating
But even still
I'm numb to this situation
Honestly unknowing
If I'm being nonchalant or
At Peace
It's just sad to see the shackles on your feet
I don't know how many times I can pray for you be free
It's a trip
That I smoke to elevate
And yet your smoking buries you
Why can't your Spirit take care of you?
Why do you listen to the wrong voice in your head
Don't speak and hear the knowledge
Do you not hear your soul cry?
You still wanna buy that rock from that guy?
I know you don't
Yet your ego still makes you do
And then you have to come home to
More heartbreak felt for and by you
Vicious cycle
Seems never ending
But I still have to believe
If I have no hope, I have nothing
But you are everything
& it pains me to see your ego take you to a level that you are not worthy of
I tell you time and time again
I just want you to rise above
Fuck if I'm being repetitive
I'm gonna say it until you rise and Live

I believe in you
Now believe in yourself
I commend your progress
But your "mistakes" still cause extra stress
Fuck this mess
I'm gonna go get dressed
And put on that childhood cape
But this time I'm not scared
Or bitter
Because I see the crown
Here it shines
With this smile from inside
I'll take your weight
So you can cleanse
No matter how long it takes
I'll put on the cape
As long as you keep yourself safe
Each letter written--I hope it radiates
Out and touches you
Grasps your soul and tugs at your spirit
"I love you unconditionally" tell me you hear it
The tears once cried have watered my seed
But other people are drowning
Including you
The spirit offers swimming lessons
But you have to listen

Fly free

Monday, August 9, 2010


Here's that word.
The word everyone wants
says but can't define....

Love is a funny thing like that.

or maybe that's people...chasing something that they can't even describe...

What fools...
or maybe perhaps this is the greatest example of Faith we have in Life.

We just KNOW...just KNOW this is good.
That we need to share the feeling....
that there's nothing better in the world.

It's sort of funny that skeptics will question God because of the lack of example of "seeing" God but yet will remain FAITHful that they will one day have Love.

The same abstract definition, description, and intuitive faith we have about Love is the same thing we should have about God.

Love has no form. and neither does God.
Yet we can't deny the feeling.
We can still express love to others...
the action may be an example of the expression of Love, but that isn't Love itself.

Yet we don't question Love...

Love is the foundation of Life.
God is the foundation of Life.
Love is Spirituality.
Spirituality is Love.
and this is ALL God.

The thing that gets me is people LIMIT their experience with Love, which means they limit their experience with Life.

People chase loving romantic relationships with partners.
Give so much of themselves for the feeling
fill each moment with passion when they are with that person

yet this is the only time they experience the true Nature of Life.
They don't share this same PASSION for Love for
their parents
their children
the Earth
the Animals
the Wind
the Water
the Stranger
the Friend

Why is that?
How can you have all of these moments with all of these beautiful Beings but not feel JUST as passionate about Loving them as you do about your partner?

Love is so much more than a romantic relationship with a partner.. You should have a loving relationship with everyone in your life.

Living in Love is a transformation, an Evolution--the ways of the Spirit. The ways of God.

Fall in love with Life. Be madly, passionately, Spiritually in Love with Life.

Passion isn't sexual--and there's different ways to Love
to express Love
but we should all practice Unconditional Love as much as possible
and attempt to get better at it each day.

Some people may be negative influences in your life--but that doesn't mean you should love them any less--but just Love them differently. You can Love passionately at a distance to those negative people. you can pray for them--send them good thoughts.

Sex isn't the only opportunity to express Love.
Every moment should be an expression of Love.
of Unconditional Love.

Love is free
and should be given Freely...

It transforms...

Love changes.

To Love someone through their growth, their changes, their transformation, their evolution. That's Love. That's God.

the Spirit of Love doesn't change--the essence--it's Being, it's foundation; it should always remain Unconditional, pure, genuine--but the expression of it does change.

because life changes--people change.
yet it still Is.

So many have lost the Passion for Spirituality and Love
and wonder why it doesn't last...

Passion is where you care DEEPLY in your Spirit
the connection
the Oneness

care enough to build Love

Anyone can Love quickly... But to care enough to take your time--to build, that's beautiful...that's special.

That's Passion.

There's so much to say about Love...yet nothing needs to be said simultaneously.

Love isn't something we know.
Love is something we are.
It is what we are.

You don't need to read a book to learn how to Love. Look to yourself, you are Love.

Trust yourself and live your Life like a Lover, not just a lover.


Who told you you weren't perfect? It was a lie.

Perhaps the biggest lie that has ever been told to Man
It gave bed to weeds of insecurity, self-hate, fear, sense of powerlessness, the idea of "mistakes"....

In reality, there is no such thing as "imperfection".
"imperfect" is a man made idea. In Nature it does not exist.

When you see a wilted flower
one with missing petals
a rotting apple
a broken tree branch
you may think of this negatively...

think it's "imperfect"
think it's "ugly"
"messed up"

but those are YOUR thoughts
YOUR labels YOU are putting on that object.

The wind doesn't look to the flower and think it's ugly.
The rotting apple that has fallen to the ground that will become a part of the soil and add nutrients which will allow more Life to grow surely doesn't think it's imperfect.
The insects that can now roam or plant eggs on the broken tree branch that is laying on the ground surely don't see this tree branch as
messed up
or imperfect...

WE are the same. Perfect. Always to Nature

When we make a "mistake" we are so very hard on ourselves even thought that experience leads you to a lesson, which leads to Growth.
Growth is winning, so even when you "lose" you win.

Your freckles aren't "imperfections" to Nature--to society perhaps
but society is man made.

Big lips
small lips
big ass
small ass
brown eyes
green eyes
red hair
thick hair
dark skin
light skin
no accent

these are not imperfections...they are not things you need to change
these are things that you need to Love.

Your body is a reflection of your Spirit.
well I like to think so.

This is why you need to take care of your Spirit.
It will only inspire you to take care of your body.

I feel people use the whole "i'm Human, i'm not perfect...only God is perfect" as an excuse to repeatedly do things they don't need to do.

To make excuses to people that they continue to hurt
and force them to be forgive because if they don't--they aren't being understanding...

People also use it as an excuse for themselves when their Spirit keeps pointing out to them that they need to change and instead of changing--they continue to do irrelevant things to their Spiritual growth because "they aren't perfect"...

Am I saying you're going to do things "right" all the time? No.
If you did--how would you learn?

But what is "right" anyways?
Can we define that--it has been defined for us so much.
Told to use what Life is.

Spiritual things can't be explained into words...
words limit...

You can feel...

THAT'S how you know what is "right" feeling it with your Spirit.

If you feel "insecure" it's not because you're imperfect but maybe, perhaps because someone or even yourself is making you feel less than what you truly are so this feeling is just here to let you know it's time to align with your True Self.

your Perfect Self.
your Egoless Self.

Saying you aren't perfect is speaking death to yourself and leads into a life where you don't accept go looking somewhere else to BECOME Perfect.

But you don't need to become something you already are.

You already are Perfect.

You've always been.

And you will always Be.


Lately, I've been seeing a lot of people calling themselves "hippies" or "modern day hippies" and they represent NOTHING that hippies are about in the their lifestyles, actions, or mindsets...

So I would like to address theses false identities and labels because you are callin' yourself something you know nothing about.

First of all, smokin' weed does NOT make you a hippie! So just because you smoke--don't call yourself a hippie. Smoking is not a "requirement" to be a hippie. Many "hippies" many happen to smoke, but that's because it gives them a sense of Love & Spirituality which goes with their beliefs.

Wearing a headband doesn't make you a hippie any more than me holding a basketball in my hand makes me a NBA player. Just because you look the part, doesn't mean you are.

And my final one that really bugs me, excuse me if you think I'm being negative, is the girls who wear cakes of pounds of makeup and girls or even guys that call themselves hippies but are materialistic!!!

materialistic hippie

is an oxymoron.
They are complete POLAR opposites...

There is no way in the world you can be a "hippie" and be materialistic, that is every thing they are against.

Being slaves to consumerism.

Hippies are about 4 things
and Unity

They are DEEPLY passionate about all four things...
Usually feel very connected to nature and prefer the natural beauty...
They are comfortable in their own skin
open minded

They want good for every man, animal, and plant...

To me, we should all be hippies at heart because all four of those things are what Spirituality is all about.

We are Spiritual Beings.

We feel the connection to one another...

Hippies want to just be happy...
live freely as Mother Nature intended for us to
but aren't afraid to speak up against in justice.

That is what a Hippie is and if that is not you
if that is not what you're about--stop throwing a false label on yourself just because you think it's the latest trend.....

in a way it's sort of offensive to the movement of them in history when they were so outspoken and about so much change....

Don't disrespect the legacy.
Live it.
Be it.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

celebrate Men

I know I kindof already did a post of this (Kings) but I need to talk about it again. The more I elevate Men...the more I see how rare it is for Women to do so, and THAT is beyond sad to me.

In my eyes Men are very VERY under-appreciated in our society...Girls are expected to be adored, complimented, uplifted, and held high while you NEVER even think of doing that thanks to the hands of our clay shaping society.

And the only time they are praised is when they have money aka "success" and personally I think that is total sexist bullshit!

Women expect to be told how beautiful they are and we have so many words to describe their beauty but Men have what one--handsome?

I have sat here and described the beauty I see, or potential or express my appreciation for a good Man & it's like I'm speaking another language...

This should NOT be the case. they should hear this all the time if it's well-deserved. Don't remain silent when you see a good Man, because he is "being a Man finally". No. you still need to show him appreciation.

You would praise a good mother right?
a good basketball player right?
a great fashion designer right?

Being a good Man is an Art.

How hard is it to show our appreciation, our admiration, how much we value them on a daily basis?

How can we expect them to love themselves...uplift themselves more than they already do if we aren't doing that?

While at the same time girls want compliments on their minds, their looks, their hearts....and guys are just supposed to be patted on the back when he gets a promotion, a new car, a new watch....? tf?!

You are confused as I don't know what.... you aren't a Woman unless you elevate EVERYONE....including our Men.

You spend so much time talking about the bad ones
and neglect the good ones.

We get mad that guys are "fuckin hos" but give the bad guys all the attention, even if it is negative attention. It's attention nonetheless right? Attention we could be using to praise the good ones?

Women are being extremely selfish & egotistical if this manner. They want all the glory but don't want to glorify another beautiful Being....

How messed up can you be?

I'm all about the elevation of Women..we need it--especially in today's society, but don't go on ignoring the problem Men are facing in society too--especially by Women specifically.

If you see a good Man, one on the right path--praise Him...appreciate Him.

Give him fuel to keeps his fire for loving Humanity going....

It's beautiful.
We need it.

We need them to build
to teach.
In order for them to build, we need to build them--delicately...

Let's stop degrading our Kings...
and appreciate them
with a loving, strong voice...not silently.

celebrate their spirit
their Being.
Celebrate Men.

...there is a God

I look at this beautiful Earth and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I look at every person, see their beauty and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I see two people in love for DECADES and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I eat an apple and am amazed that it grew from a tiny seed and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I think about the immensity of the Universe and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I hear so many poetic words, so many creative minds and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I see a person give to a homeless man and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I think if how much everything is connected just for two ppl to meet and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I hear such beautiful Music and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I see the Ocean's waves roar and feel the wind dance on my skin and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I see the transformation of a caterpillar escaping it's cocoon and becoming a butterfly and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I see the other realms in the eyes of Children and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I see a Woman get cured from a disease with no medicine and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I see a Man rid his addiction from cocaine without one day in rehab and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I see a person about to shoot, put down their gun and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.

I look in the face of You and I say undoubtedly, there has to be a God.


Some have said the word "thirsty" is the word of 2010... Meaning desperate, usually in reference to a girl or guy that's a bugaboo or is always doin' TOO much !

But today I had a thought (I don't know if it was an original thought, many may share this with me) that this IS indeed a perfect word to describe people with, but it applies to many more people than your typical "bugaboo"...

Society as a whole is "thirsty"....
searching anywhere they can to quench their thirst.

Society is spiritually thirsty...
thirsty for love... So dehydrated, desperate.
Spiritual thirst won't be quenched by outer "love"
Society is dehydrated from lack of Spirituality.

What happens when you are thirsty? like in the see mirages, illusion & believe that they are real. You chase after it...desperately...think you've found salvation and when you finally get there--it's doesn't do what you expected it to do once you finally "get there"...

Society is a lot like this.

Stuck chasing illusions in the matrix in the outside world that is trying to convince you will quench your thirst. But it can't and it won't...and yet you still believe in matter how many times you are deceived...

You continue to chase it....

&& yet you wonder why you are never fulfilled...
why the alcohol doesn't really take away the pan...
why the sex doesn't really fill your "void" of Love....
why the clothes don't make you feel any more worthy even if they are the best names brands out...
you wonder why when you get alone, you hear so many voices....
and why you feel bad about your actions

you think you're crazy--so instead of dealing with it--quenching your thirst, you look outward again because you think the water is out there--in the sand....

You're either going in circles or the wrong directions because you're listening to the illusions to tell you where the water is, but the mirages keep changing places...
like a ghost...

to find the water that will quench your thirst....
your intuition will guide you....
to a river
a stream
an ocean
a lake
within yourself...

Without water you can't live, without a spirit you can't Be.

You don't have to go anywhere...
you don't have to move...
you don't have to open your eyes and get tricked by what's outside....

will cure any amount of dehydration you have
but first you have to recognize you are looking to the wrong things
trusting the wrong things
when all you need to do is trust yourself....

Love yourself
Let self-love water your plant, water your seed...
and you will never be thirsty again.

Silent silhouettes

Their silhouettes danced on the walls projected by candlelight
Like an old movie
Yet loud
Volumes spoken in nakedness 
With closed lips
Geometric shapes
Painted in cloudy blackness
As the shadows whispered
That connected with
Politely caressing the moment 
With natural heat
And simultaneously
Remaining chill
The arch so perfected
As if created for This
This Moment
Only to come Once
And so quickly gone
Only to create another 
Magical memory
Tips of hands
Reading her skin
Like hieroglyphs
Her souls language
As spirit speaks
With the help of no mouth
Or tongue
Just the power of the hug
So very open
Whole heartedly surrendering
From god to goddess
Goddess to God
Endless appreciative worship
As the shadows on the walls
Told their tale
Like mimes
Yet so much to say
So much to show
So powerful
The flames on the wick
Remain unmoved
At peace
With moment
One with the moment
One with the Now
The love
The shadows
The scene of Lovers
Loving Lovers

Friday, July 30, 2010

the healing Queen

I see a role I must play for you
my spirit floats
as the medication from my love
attempts to heal your brokenness

this is why i kiss so gently
and caress your skin
in each cell I see the King in them

but those before me had blind eyes
and what's even worse is those blind eyes
started from inside
of you

how could you let this
how could you let this
how could you
let yourself feel subjected
switch perspectives
and welcome to my point of view
see the King
the King I see in you

I praise your gentle ways
those characteristics
labeled weak
by hypnotized souls
aligned with illusions

I see this
I feel this
I am so appreciative

scratches on your heart
i place my healing hands
and lay my head on your chest
as it beats
it will rise
and beat faster
528 Hz is what i'm after

My lips lift lies that spoke death upon you
resurrection kisses
giving life to you
mother nature's breath
to plant seeds
rid you of the weeds
so i hold you close
like mama bear
who aches to keep you safe

all of the things built up in your mind
i dig deep within myself
so i can find ways to change
you perception
elevate you to heaven
with the tips of my fingertips
tracing your skin
sensual secrets
is here, where they begin

nothing sexual but i do
desire for you to let me in
into your emotions
so you can feel like a King again
every moment with me you're seated on a throne
woman treating you like royalty is all your heart should know

these impressions on my back are made for your hands
so you can stop covering your face from the tears
of old women

I know you don't want to admit it
but i can feel it in your spirit
you wonder if you can trust me
because all you've ever experienced
were "bitches"
dogs badly trained by the media
lettin the TV
lead her
to her actions in how she should act with you
cussing you out and degrading you
thinkin' that shit was cute
but that isn't you
and that wasn't her
just society lying
wanting to see you crying
applauding the chaos they saw in your heart
but im here to take you back to the start
where love and your spirit weren't apart

now you have thought the way to protect yourself
is to teach yourself
not to feel
but your plan has failed
and i am here to reveal
that the walls never needed to be built
just past emotions need to be dealt
leave that baggage
check it in to luggage momentarily
empty it out quietly
but if you need to shout that's okay with me
please, just don't shout at me
all i want for you
is to be free

so i sit here and believe
each moment with me is destiny
even if it isn't forever
i am here to help you discover
that this pain doesn't have to stay
and a woman can love a King the right way

I just want to uplift you
so every moment i want to give you
endless appreciation
make you feel safe and
wrap you in my embrace
dream all your pain away

my hips tell stories of spiritual integrity
give me your hand
i want to whisper your life line
as I read the sky in your eyes
exploration of your soul
in each time i look at you
hide and go seek
with your soul's puzzle piece-s
my love will be your remedy
your serenity
your healing

they say i can't kiss away your pain
i can simply promise not to create any more
they say only you can heal your scars
but still i have to try

so i kiss away the hurt
i caress away the pain
i dance in each step
stepped next to you

King I told you
I wrote a poem about you
but it's not on paper...

it's in the way I move

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Soul Cry

i see 'em hustlin'
Tryna chase that green
But i never understood greed so i don't
Know what hustlin' means
they get it how they live
&fuck around and forget who they be
So i let em become rats in this race
while they look down on me
you may be dressed in labels but
That shit just ain't me
i come from a God who says that i am lovely
i work real hard only for two things
To support my friends and family
Cus all my life they supported me
i might give some money to the
Needy people on the street
When i look at them
i see a reflection of me
i can't walk by and see their pain
Without feeling guilty
i got socks and shoes on my feet
While they cough and sneeze
So i go in my pocket and dig real deep
i see what God has blessed me
Something i can bless others with
Unconditional love i can give to them
A smile i can share with them
i don't care if you're white or black men
i just want us all to win
So i keep on meditating
Keep on elevating
Sharing the frequencies
Love radiates out from me
Telling me that change can be
First things first
It has to start with me
Living egofree
Each moment making the earth more heavenly
We can create it if we just believe

If i go broke tryna change the world
So be it
i gotta give to the ones who need it
This is what keeps my heart a-beating
Got the rhythm of a passionate spirit
Can you hear it?
you get back whatchu give
So i don't even sweat it
All these people casting judgment
When they see me
Talking to the "satan's kids"
Cus they don't like the way they live
Forgetting that We're all in it
Please understand that
The downfall of any man
Is the downfall of every human
Can't say We're happy if
Too many souls are frownin'
Imprisoned in their ego's fist
Clenching all of their attempted movements
Too prideful to reach out
Too prideful to carry out
Our life's mission to change some shit
Welcome to Evolution
you can't stop it even if you tried
Cus ego is the devil and the devil is a lie
So i walk with steps of Light
Never hallow or shallow
Never casting shadows
Removing the clouds
But dancing in the rain
During the spring
So summer can come
And the blossoms will bud
Let's arrange somethin'
i'm tryna change somethin'
Money comes and money goes
But Peace is everlasting
Some say it only lasts for a moment
but We can make it happen
forget the distraction
Materialism is just actin'
Seducing you from the Truth
That was a part of you
Since before you could move
Inside of your mother's tummy
Change is here so let's stop the runnin'
Let's walk and embrace
The Unity and the change
The Evolution of our D N A
The beauty of "doomsday"
Gimme your hand
Not so i can guide
But so i can be by your side
As intuition overrides
And changes the future of human lives
Right NOW Peace begins
All you gotta do is tell me
When you want it
If you need it
Put the passion in your feet
Let your heart walk down the street
i told you years ago this day would come

i'm not a prophet
This isn't a prophecy
i'm just speaking positive affirmations
Into existence
With infinite hugs and infinite kisses
Welcome you to a world of God as boys and girls
Where they can create their dreams
And see that We're all Kings and Queens
Peace was never my dream
It was always Our reality
you just have to close your eyes
So you can see
Peace is here
Peace is We

Monday, July 26, 2010


I am a big person on seeing the beauty in the little things. Everyday i see people making little baby steps in the right direction and I love it.

The time we are living in is SO beautiful--to witness a evolution of our species right before our own eyes! This is not something we are reading about in history books, we are LIVING it!

We are the change
We are the growth
We are the evolution

Some people appreciate the flower, tree, piece of fruit when it gets to that stage but I'm a big person on PROCESS.

Nothing is more beautiful than the outcome except the transformation itself.

Sure the outcome is beautiful
but for it to start from a teeny tiny little seed makes it even more

I see this in people.

Many love the person once they've reached
that goal weight
the GPA

whatever you wanna think about--but being able to witness and see HOW the outcome and growth took place is where the magic lies.

The catch to this is, you have to have patience
and believe in the potential of the seed
that it will bear fruit.

Many people have given up on our seeds
or dismiss a person's process because they have yet to reach the end result
some perspectives are simply blind to the transformation happening right before their eyes.

I love seeing a person make certain choices
and then all of the sudden their eyes are opened
and they change.....

It's such a such a beautiful thing and yet is not appreciated enough in my eyes.

I love witnessing someone else realizing their potential I've seen in them all along
that God has seen in them all along
that God planted in us from the beginning.

It's such a beautiful thing to watch.
to see their curiosity
to watch them thirst for truth
and then go out and get that
to see them finally nurture their true self

to find that true self
to be reintroduced
to live free

There's nothing more beautiful than that.
I know I keep saying "beautiful", but it truly is!

The magic is not in the flower but the journey that created the seed, stem, bud, rain, sunshine, petals....

Don't just love the summer blossoms,
admire the spring waters that made the blooming of that possible!

Friday, July 23, 2010

Mary Jane: Goddess of peace & love

“When you smoke the herb, it reveals you to yourself.”
Bob Marley ♥

Okay now...I KNOW what you're thinking--"typical college student", right?

Well actually this has nothing to do with the trend people are taking part in or me bing a "wild college student" testing demonic sinful things...

In fact, many people I know who have smoked for YEARS don't know the beauty of what weed or any other psychedelic has the ability to bless you with. A spiritual experience.

Firstly, I want to say I had a HUGE stigma against weed before I went to college because of religion and all of these lies the media has spoon-fed us our entire lives even though I have been around it by loved ones my whole life.

Let me clear something up.
I don't spend my life, gettin' blazed everyday and become lazy.
I have never needed to be high to "be smart" or "deep".

That has came rather natural to me--in fact....I was rather "snooty" when it came to the idea of it being able to make me think deep since I am already a very deep thinker.

But eventually--I decided to after doing some research and freeing myself from the lies of "cons" the media has told us.

The first time was with a couple friends--was cool and all.

& THIS is where most of people's experience with it stops.
THIS is not what it is put here for.

The second time was way more chill AND more
individual...where I trusted it to do what it's supposed to.

and the result a SPIRITUAL experience I have NEVER experienced in ALL of my years of being a "dedicated Christian" when I was one.

I can't tell you here in detail what it was because it would take too long...
the explanation in person has labeled me as crazy.

and perhaps I am?
to society at least.
I am not normal to this corrupt society.

I'd never want to fit in to corruption anyway...

I knew my experience, obviously was not common to people so I questioned it at first
but accepted it because I knew it was so beautiful.

Then one day I was watching my favorite documentary Freedom Movie 2: A Spiritual Awakening
and this part came on

And what they were talking about was EXACTLY what i experienced.


I saw the beauty in the simplest things, a connection and intuition about things so STRONG. My eyes had been opened to even more things than before, on just this one experience.

I felt so elevated.
I felt so at peace.
I felt changed.
I had grew.

The power in this natural substance is so beautiful
and yet it so rarely experienced
that when you actually DO get what you're supposed to out of it,

you're CRAZY
you're TRIPPIN'

Honestly, I feel sorry for you if you have yet to experience it.

Look at many of the great musicians
we've had

Bob Marley
Erykah Badu
John Lennon

Now pause....stop and think what they were about.
Tell me that isn't God.

you're supposed to go in it with an open heart and mind.
be still
& let it elevate you to your higher self.

THAT is what it is here for--to introduce yourself to the God in you.


We have became a greedy society.
Who wants more more and more
more material shit to impress people who are slaves of consumerism

Money doesn't matter....
because it has NO VALUE.
It was once backed by gold

it's backed by


It's just a piece of paper--literally.
worthless paper.

It only holds value because WE believe it does.
because we believe the lie.

Now before I go into this topic a whole bunch--I HIGHLY recommend you watch this video in the middle of the post before I you continue to read. It is the first clip of Freedom Movie (a documentary) and explains IN detail the truth about money.

It seems to me something we work so hard for, we'd question--search--assure ourselves that we are gettin' something of equal value for our work, our time and efforts.
Yer we put our faith in something that we have NEVER learned about.

and we go to our jobs
and sacrifice moments and memories with our loved ones for something we know nothing of...

What sense does that make?

Do your research!
If I was to give you some medicine--you'd want to know
what it does
how it's going to help you
and where it came from right?

Why do we blindly accept money into our lives with NO questions?

The federal reserves is not even a federal bank!
It just uses the name to trick you,
as if I changed my name to Federal Cooper.

It means nothing.

So this whole thing we're basing our life on has no value
so if you chase that
desire that
live FOR that--you are living for no value.

This is not even something you need to look deep into,
this is IN YOUR FACE.
common sense

building your life on something no value
has only one outcome--a life built OF no value.


"The best things in life are free..."
What does that mean?
Things that can't be bought with money?
That have no "value"...

NO it means the best things come from freedom


Things money could NEVER build.
How come so many rich people are lonely?

Is this not a reflection of the emptiness in the materialistic world?

Why invest your time chasing something that does nothing for you?
So you can buy things?


All of this "neccessity" to work is total bullshit.
When you were born, did God say you don't "own" this,
can't buy that?
can't eat here...go to school here?

Men's ideas put those limitations on you!

Money limits your possibilities
because it's giving you something you already had at birth!
that we ALL already had.

Don't be fooled
Don't be their slave

Become free.
Live Free.
Love freely.

Thursday, July 22, 2010


Now, I couldn't just let myself talk about the women, without talking about the men. Some may find it odd that I chose to that since so many men are looked up to in society as "superior" or "high", but I feel like society looks to them for all the wrong reasons...and we have been programmed to think this is what a "Man" should be.

This is one of the reasons I chose to use a Native American Chief as the photograph to represent Kings (men).

If you think of a "successful" man in society we immediately think of a businessman in a suit as the CEO of some big company or something.

THAT is not what being a Man is all about.

Now I'm not going to sit here and preach like I know what Manhood all entails, because I am not a man--all I am here for is to provide MY point of view on what I think it is/should be.

I have to be honest and say I don't see many girls making a man feel like a Man...
What I mean to say is...I don't see many acts of elevation for Men in society.

They downtalk them constantly!

We expect them to be the provider, bring home the money
Have nice clothes, looks, intelligence, muscles, the fastest car, etc etc

We constantly DEMAND and don't appreciate what they do at all, because these are society's EXPECTATIONS.

Sure there's a lot of "dead beat fathers" and "bad" men out there, but we're so busy talking about the bad ones the GREAT ones hear no recognition!

So many guys talk shit about their ain't shit dad, but go on acting just like them unknowingly, in the music they listen to, relationships, etc

Let's think of what really makes a King a King...
What characteristics deserve praise?


Just like society tells all of us? can still have all of that and not have a pure heart.

Well what does history teach us about what a Man should be?
not much if you think about it...

The bible TELLS us what they should be
but where is the lesson,
where are the examples ?

As, I'm thinking of this--I can't even think of a character I can use as a template as to what a Man should be or is.

The idea about being a Man has been so twisted and influenced by humans so much, I don't even know if we have a great definition of what makes a man a Man in society.

So what I'm going to do is go back to the source--God.
Someone who is Godlike deserves to be praised as God does...

So what is God?
How does God act?

No Bible can tell you.
Just yourself--your inner spirit.
That is where God is--in us all.

When you stop looking outward for the definition--you will see it.
That is Truth.

I feel so many men in our society are distracted by the outer world, they don't have much time to reflect on who or see what they truly are....

They're too busy trying to impress the next girl by working out and consuming unnecessary things that reflect nothing of his True Self,
being seduced by some chick,
attempting to be more of a "Man" than his friend so he has to buy the latest car

A Man is a loving creature,
who protects his family
and makes sure they're safe every step of the way

His hands are used to build, not destroy
His heart knows no selfishness
and isn't to proud to admit his mistakes
He communicates with others' feelings in mind

He loves for the sake of loving.
He is in tune with nature--with God.
When you are in tune with nature--you are in tune with yourself.

A Man listens
and responds with wise words from deep within his Godliness.

He is thirsty for knowledge like it is the water he drinks.
Every day seeking to go to the pond, stream, river, lake
and fill his cup,

A cup he can share.

He believes in the community
is IN the community
values the community
because the community is Him--the community is God.

His words are powerful like the wind
and carry on in the breeze to reach
other lands
other generations

As a lover He appreciates and reciprocates the love He receives.

He doesn't need anything to feel like a man--to feel like God because He is conscious that, that is what He already is.

The name brand clothes don't make him a Man.
The car.
The number of women his slept with.
The amount of women his talked down on to make himself feel greater.

He is already Great
and is content with

It's His PASSION for love that makes him strong.
No amount of body building can measure up to Passion.

It is His Determination to provide that makes Him extraordinary.

It is his Tenacity to RISE out of ANYTHING and never give up.

It is his Wisdom that makes him admirable.

It is His Will to love the world unconditionally that makes Him worthy.

It is His Promise in his face that makes Him Beautiful.
the velvet of his skin
the "I'll always be there--you can depend on me"
the healing in His embrace

THIS is a reason to admire Men.
This is a reason to look up
to elevate
to appreciate.

It if for their Love.
It is for their Godliness.
It is for the loving King in them.


Today I was listening to some music, and I stopped and thought to myself--what happened to elevating and uplifting our women?

Now I could blame it on rap or men and say that THEY constantly degrade us, so are responsible for these women who lack self-love, but I'm not going to do that.

Instead in fact, I want to know where the hell are our women leaders and musicians putting positive words into these girls minds, so that they demand the respect they deserve?

I can't even think of the last song I've heard like that.... It's been DECADES...and even the couple in the mainstream who were representing have sold out and became sexual objects. Yes, there are a few in the neo-soul industry that try and uplift black women--but I'm not just referring to black women.

I am talking about ALL women.

Women were once active in fighting to be respected, listened to, and treated equally by men and now we're callin' each other "bitches", "sluts", and "whores" as a term of endearment?!

We could point the finger all day about who has responsibility in this,
the parents
the music
the media
the boys

But pointing the finger isn't uplifting the women now is it?

Women, we've been lied to about what we are
why we should value ourselves
what we should take pride in
and what beautiful really is.

If you are accepting being disrespected by men--STOP.
If you are a women who disrespects other women--STOP.

You are a beautiful being
with a loving heart that is built to plant seeds
and make things grow.

You are here to nurture.
To love.

You are elegant.

Your curves are a stroke of the paintbrush of the Creator.
Like the golden hills.

Dazzling eyes
like all the stars in the universe.

A mind that has the power to create anything you wish
to learn anything you desire
to share you knowledge
to water seeds that have already been planted
to pick the fruit off of the tree of TRUTH

You are NOT going to just get by on your looks, you consume yourself in knowledge and wisdom...You nourish your mind constantly. You feed off the words, each lesson like a vitamin--a new nutrient--nourishing your body so you can birth LIFE...

A majestic spirit who has endless capabilities.

Don't limit yourself.
Don't hate yourself.
Love yourself.

See your worth.
your priceless worth.

There is nothing like the power of a woman's love,
the comfort in a woman's hug,
the strength in a woman's working delicate hands
the promise of a woman's kiss whether if it's for her husband or her children

You are a giver.
The truth.

See that when you look in the mirror.
See that when you look at each other.

You hold the family together in your heart.
Your spirit TOUCHES people.
It floats,
like an angel in the heavenly sky.

You are NOT a video vixen who is destined to slide down a pole to give some perv a temporary fix of his lust, lack of self-love addiction.

You are NOT a maid that is just supposed to cook and clean with no appreciation received...

You keep the house up because you want to, not because it's your obligation.
You do this as an act of love for the people you care about.

Such a selfless, loving act.
An act that should be appreciated.
I appreciate you.

You are not a being that should bow down to any and every man in your life because they are superior to you.
This is a fallacy.

YOU BOTH have God in your spirits.
and you BOTH should treat each OTHER like royalty.

Elevate yourself, because God is you--God is us. We are God.
If we hold God high--we should hold ourselves high
and hold each other high.

You should be treated like a Queen.
her "highness"
That is what you are.

Powerful but not overbearing
Sweet but not submissive
Beautiful but not vain
Proud but not prideful
Loving but not weak
Strong but not aggressive
Elegant but not snooty
Delicate but not breakable
Confident but not arrogant
Mindful but yet open-minded
Valuable but yet priceless

elevate yourself.

You are an empress.
You are a goddess.

don't accept anything less.

Say this:
I am NOT your bitch. I am a Queen.

Remember that.
Know that.
Expect that.
Demand that.
Nourish that.
Love that.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010


Je t'aime
Te quiero
Aloha wau ia 'oe
Wo ai ni
I love you!

These words so desperately wanted to be heard. So frequently chased after, yet overused. People want the outcome, but never want to put in the work...

Nothing worth having comes easy.

Now, I don't know exactly what I'm going to write about this subject but I can't help but look around and see people's desire for a relationship all around me.

Love is such a beautiful thing and the sight of it makes me happy inside but few are mature enough or willing to really make it become it's true potential, and this applies to all ages, races, and genders.

My first problem is WE ARE ALWAYS POINTING THE FINGER at the other sex and saying it's THEIR fault relationships aren't lasting...

Come on now guys.
Let's take some responsibility.

&& if you don't want to say it--I will. On behalf of ALL of us.

Some "men" and "women" don't appreciate a GOOD thing when they have it. It seems to me that without a doubt it's ALWAYS a "good" person with a "bad"--one feeling unappreciated and trying to make it work. While the other is constantly taking advantage of that person's heart. I've seen this in BOTH sexes so we can stop saying it's JUST girls who experience this OR JUST boys.

Another thing I see is people "claiming" they want a solid person but they either
1) play games until they're "ready" to be in a relationship in the meantime the other person shouldn't date anyone
2) cheat on the person and continue to expect to be forgiven by the person

and this is not okay.
One of the issues is--WOMEN HAVE STOPPED BEING WOMEN. we have stopped demanding respect for ourselves because we OURSELVES don't respect ourselves.

if someone is dogging you and they continue to--you need to look at YOURSELF and wonder why THEY think this is okay.

Women have accepted half-ass relationships being
"the other women"
or just "friends with benefits" because their significant other wants to "have fun", "be young" etc

(this is true for men too. some girls play this same role on guys)

we have this GREAT person right before our eyes but don't stay with them (or faithful) because we think we can find someone with more money, a nicer car, a better job, a better education, better teeth, better shoes, bigger ass, bigger chest, more tattoos....all this materialistic IRRELEVANT shit.

It's ridiculous! LOOK AT THE PERSON'S HEART.

Another thing I see--is everyone is depending on the OTHER person to save them from their life.

some guys think they need a woman to become a man
and some women think they need a man to feel love.

We spend all this time searching for love and affection from an outer source and wonder why when the break-up comes, we feel so alone.

it's because you've allowed someone to give you your self worth!

The first and BIGGEST problem I see in all relationships is no one has SELF LOVE.
They don't even know what that is,
and the outcome of a person that doesn't know how to love themselves is a person that doesn't know how to love other people!

You ATTRACT the person you are with and vice versa--so deep down inside, subconsciously your ego WANTED this...

if you don't love yourself--you're going to attract someone who doesn't love themselves, most likely and you are BOTH going to be dependent on each other for love because you aren't recieving that from any other source.

You need to be happy by yourself FIRST to be able to know who YOU are. to know what YOU value.

you know more about that person than you know about yourself.
your TRUE self.
your inner self.

You chase and chase and chase to find this thing that you already obtain.

So many people hop from one relationship to another to another to help them get over an ex and the pain and it NEVER works. deep down that pain STILL needs to be dealt with.

If everyone loved themselves
no one would accept selfish lovers
abusive relationships
being the person on the side of someone ELSE's relationship.

We say I love you too quickly...we don't even KNOW the person to know who or what we are loving.

You love the "idea" about love. it doesn't matter who's in that position, giving you the idea. You just like the lil' butterfly feeling.

Love is SO MUCH DEEPER than that.
When you love someone you love that person's heart

You don't let little arguments blow up into bigger issues.
You don't let things build up.
You aren't afraid to communicate.
You aren't afraid to dream together.
You don't hold back.
You are free TOGETHER.

You both brings something to EACH OTHER that helps you BOTH grow.
you don't let it--because everyday
day in and day out
you give your ALL to them, because you give your all to yourself, you give you all to LIFE.

You find an adventure for them.
You are eager to make them smile.
To challenge them.
To surprise them.

You don't take the easy way out--you work THOUGH it.

People have forgotten how to do that.
We have became of society full of pride.

Prideful people CAN'T love.

They care more about being right
winning an argument
then resolving an issue.

They care more about saying what their ego has placed in their minds
than to stop and think about the OTHER person's feelings.

Prideful people don't look at the bigger picture.
they focus on the heat of the moment.
Instead of saying "this is the person I love"
they say "this is the person who didn't wash the dishes again"...

People are getting divorced over the smallest, FIXABLE things.
Our grandparents' marriages/relationships lasted DECADES while we can't even get over the couple year hump.

Sure there are other reasons for that...
but self-love could fix a lot of these problems.

Before you can love ANYONE.
love yourself.
love yourself so you can love the other person to the best of your ability...

Love to grow.
that's what love is about--GROWTH.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010


Such a loaded word. When i hear this word I get so many mixed emotions.
I feel fear.
I feel hate.
I feel despair.
I feel sadness.
I feel guilt.
I feel responsibility.
I feel denial.
I feel like I want to be blind.

My whole life race has been a very hard topic for me to understand as a woman of many "races" and it's was something my heart could never you could hate SO MUCH. THIS much.

I've experienced many "racist" situations, even from my own "races" because I was not enough of one and too much of the other. I always felt misplaced and confused.

I never understood why we couldn't just love.
I didn't know if I was wondering that because I am mixed
or if it's because I am just a human being...

I always thought people aren't born racist--we are TAUGHT to be that way
by society.
racism divides.
it judges.
it assumes.

and it robs us of gettin' to know someone and takes away a lesson their souls could have taught us.

Even times I see people who experience racism themselves, holdin' themselves superior to another race to "uplift their people" and it makes me wonder and question, how does that change ANYTHING?!

You're doing exactly the same thing that was done to you, except now in a perverted way of "uplift" and "love".

I recently watched this documentary ( on the origin of humanity and it's race.
The study found we started out in Africa, no surprise there--everyone knows that, or so I thought. But what was interesting to me was the journey the rest of the documentary took us on as the other "races" were created and the explanation it scientifically explained of our similarities as a species.

In our genetic makeup only a few parts of our DNA are the difference in our genetic makeup (our race) while there are THOUSANDS of parts of our DNA that make us all the SAME.

We ALL started from the same place...Just because we look different, doesn't mean anything. If you go back into our "family tree" enough you will find we all started from the same place so ALL our family in one way or another.

and with this thought process
it strips away all of the stereotypes because we all have a piece of the race we make fun of or that makes fun of us.

And if that's the case what sense does it make to divide a family?

Am I saying you should not learn about "your" own history? No, please--educate yourself. What I AM saying is don't limit yourself to just YOUR history because ALL history is YOUR history.

The more we learn about each other--the more we learn about ourselves. The more we learn about ourselves, the more we learn about each other.

Because we are WE.
We are ONE.

And I can only hope that WE choose to LOVE instead of allowing our egos to consume us and convince us that being racist towards ourselves is okay.

Racism is a form of "self"-hate towards all of humanity.
and it needs to lose its power.

Self-love is the prescription
and the remedy is unity.

THIS and only this
only love will produce peace.

Peace cannot be without love.
and I cannot be without you.
You cannot be without me.

We cannot be without WE.