What is God?

What is God?
My fellow twitter friend asked me that today. I’ve never been asked that before and I definitely can’t explain that in 140 characters via Twitter, so imma do a blog instead 
He said; “Lemme help you out ‘God is Love’…”
&& yes I was going to say that but love is so commonly misused, I wanna get a lil deeper than that.
Why do I believe in God?
Is it because I’m religious?
Actually I have turned away from the idea of “religion” as I got older. But I am extremely spiritual. After all of the years I spent in church when things weren’t going right in my life, and that feeling that consumed my spirit—I can never deny that. I could never deny that existed. I FELT THAT. I could never deny all of the encounters I’ve had with Him--how many times I prayed and my prayers were answered. Yes, sure, sometimes they didn’t come in the time I wanted but sure—they came. Not in my time, but in God’s time.
Many people who don’t believe in God are turned away because of all of the wrongdoings in the world and wonder if “God is love” then why do people get raped? Why do people commit suicide? Why do we have wars? And I can’t answer that. I wish I would.


But I could also ask the same questions,
Why do some marriages last?
Why do some experience happiness?
Why do we smile?
Why do we overcome obstacles?
Why is slavery over?
Why do women have rights now?
Why do we find freedom, love, and harmony in life?
Some questions aren’t answerable…….
But I can talk from experience…and from that I’ll tell you God is REAL. I can tell you only by the grace of God I’m still here after all of the bullshit I’ve experienced in life. Only by the grace of God has my family member not overdosed on drug use. Only by the grace of God is my Mom living after being diagnosed with cancer with a NO HEALTH insurance or real treatment 5 years ago. Only by the grace of God did my family rise out of a lot of our horrible past struggles….
And sure you ask well if there is a God why are you so lucky? and others haven’t been so fortunate? Well 1) I remained faithful and positive
And if you research “the secret” or “law of attraction” you can see the power of being positive. A lot of us experience one bad thing and wallow in our misery only to attract more negativity. We have to have the confidence, the self-love, to pick ourselves up when life throws things at us that aren’t the most pleasant of things to go through….

No I may be rambling on, but bear with me…. I have to clear a few things up before I can describe God to you.

Now some also may say if God is so AMAZING like you’re trying to tell me then why the hell doesn’t he just make the pain go away….? Why doesn’t he just fix everything….?

WELL I believe this goes back to the old “appreciate something when it’s gone type of thing….”
The way I see it….God’s love is the most precious—UNCONDITIONAL—pure love of them all….but if we have something in our whole “time” of our eternal lives how can we see how amazing something is if it isn’t taken away for some period of time?
I feel like my struggles, my hurt, my pain, my tears, made me so much more grateful for the love of God. And if I would have never experienced those things….I would not have appreciated that love to the same degree. Just like when my Mama was diagnosed with Cancer….I mean I LOVED her, but thinking about life without her love made me appreciate it 100x more.
Now okay you may be thinkin’ this is cliché or whatever but I’m telling you from my experience, this is true. Now you can ask well then what happens to people that commit suicide and don’t get the chance to find that “refuge”…..they go to hell? So God’s punishing them? I thought this was a place for them to gain appreciation not a place to banish them to hell…..

WELL that really depends on which way you want to look at life. And that has to do with your idea about death. If you don’t believe in reincarnation that makes sense, but even as I’m writing this—I can’t fathom God would PUNISH you by not learning the first time…..We make mistakes…Who’s to say we only have one life?
NOW I’m not going to get into the deal about reincarnation because that’s another topic BUT I do want you to keep an OPEN MIND. I am describing God…NOT religion.
I feel religious people have been such big hypocrites and so quick to judge those others pair that with what God is and that most definitely ISNOT HIM!! So don’t confuse people’s doings as WHAT GOD IS…
Because that is irrelevant to that Great Spirit.
Aside from the feeling I have in my soul about God….I can’t help but think how can you NOT believe in a higher power.
The thing that really makes me think this is NATURE. I see all of the beautiful things in this world; mountains, waterfalls, flowers, the glittery sand, the diversity among animals, and think to myself SOMETHING HAD TO CREATE THAT. The way nature works and how everything is UNIFIED in its interrelation with other organisms…makes me believe that there HAS to be a creator, an artist to that great majesty .




Look at the universe…the millions of stars and galaxies…..things that aren’t explainable or we don’t really WHY they’re there…I mean THEY have to be there for a reason—just how we’re here. We have a purpose, no one can deny that. And I can’t think that we are only here by “accident” or that’s just the way it is. You ask me do I have evidence….aside from this beautiful universe and what my SOUL leads me to believe and I couldn’t sit here and draw you out a chart….I couldn’t sit here and paint you a picture.
Just like when you tell someone you’re “in love” with them………You can’t SEE the “love”…Maybe some actions might make you believe one way or the other. But what does LOVE look like? What is the evidence someone loves you? Just because you can’t “see” something, doesn’t mean it isn’t there. I can’t see the wind…but it’s there. I can’t see the inside of a black hole, but we know it exists…..I can’t see my soul—but I know it’s there. I FEEL it’s there. Maybe we can’t see it cus we’re looking with the wrong eyes…..

And with that said to me—God is a Great Spirit….SOMETHING INSIDE OF EVERYTHING. Inside of ME and YOU—that connects all of us together. Even science has talked about it, a very small, even beneath the atomic level, of a “something” everything in the universe shares…. I feel THAT is God. It is spirit that teaches me to love myself and other unconditionally….. That Spirit that talks to me when I’m weighing in on choices….That Spirit that I feel inside of my stomach…when I’m listening to music as I’m connecting with someone else’s soul. It is that peace of mind I feel when I am standing next to a waterfall and the mist blows upon me. It is that majesty I hear in the ocean’s waves. It is that wonder I feel when I look at the starry night sky. It is that comfort I feel when I am hugged by my mother. It is that joy I feel when I walk through a Garden. God is Peace—to me. Peace within all times. It is that peace you discover when you look inside yourself—where that Spirit resides—and know everything will be okay. It’s that peace you feel when you realize you can create a change. It’s that peace you feel when you make someone else smile. It’s that peace you feel when you discover the beauty of giving love.

God is harmony.
God is refuge.
God is something so complex our human minds can never truly grasp the WHOLE concept of, at least not at once…..We discover more and more of what God is each day….

We never stop learning
Because we never
Stop spiritually growing….

Because our souls are eternal
Our spirits live forever……

Building blocks

It just is soooo crazy to me as I look at all of the monumental buildings and accomplishments humanity has achieved. We've flew to the moon. We've mastered difficult subjects like quantum physics and calculus. And yet we can't find a way to feed the poor... We can manipulate statistics and equations to increse intrest profits on credit cards and isurance policies but yet we can't feed the homeless. We can create nuclear bombs, jet planes, submarines, robots, touch screen eletronics but can't find a way to take care of the elders, protect abused children, stop domestic violence, keep drugs out of our borders. We have mastered discriminating, judgin, hatin but have yet to find the way to love the world unconditionally. We can find all the time in the world to connect on facebook, Twitter, myspace but have no time to solve social issues. no time to talk to god. No time to help someone else.

It just doesn't make sense if we can create materpieces out of paint.... Machines out of metal... Calculators... How do we get away with the excuse for not creating world peace?

They say it's impossible, right? Ha... About half of those things I named seemed impossible a mere 100 years ago and now look. It's not that it's impossible--ppl just haven't invested enough time. Our priorities are backwards. When will we flip them? When will we put our energy into things that are really worth it? Things that will change humanity forever? When will we stop making excuses--ignoring problems? As if they're gonna just go away...? How much longer are we gonna leave the broken pieces to be picked up by future generations? We need to take responsiblity. We need to spend our time the right way--creating the RIGHT things. We need to create love again.

BADD BITCH

I can't seem to help but feel overwhelmed with all of the endless expectations men place on women. And nooo I'm not trying to play the victim, but I just feel like society expects a woman to be perfect.

Ask a guy to describe their dream woman

and you'll probably get this equation

Big boobs
+
Fat Ass
+
Long Hair
+
Pretty Face
+
Perfect teeth
=
;D

&& it's like Damn did you just decribe a Barbie doll?

not to mention they probably want a certain skin complexion, perfectly arched eyebrows, fly gear, maybe even heels, etc

&& It's like how the fck is a real woman supposed to live up to that? & if she doesn't she does one of two things
1--becomes insecure
or
2--go out and seeks cosmetic makeup (store bought, plastic surgery, etc) to live up to the expectation of society's idea of "beauty"

You think now, she is SURE to be accepted.
Nope.

Still don't live up to it--because most men prefer a "natural beauty"..... how the fuck do you expect us to have all of this NATURALLY?! How can you be perfect NATURALLY?!
People look to models, celebrities, people on tv as guides for how people should look & yessss they are REAL people--but they have personal shoppers, trainers, money to blow, the best of the best makeup artists.... if ANYONE had that--they'd look like a "BADD BITCH"!! (Not to mention the beauty of airbrushing photos)

SO how is the "average/regualr woman" supposed to compete with the mass media telling her she should have a Kim Kardashian body with a Keri Hilson face and Alicia Keys' hair?

Wouldn't that make you feel lesser than & not good enough?
And yet a guy doesn't like a "insecure" woman.... They want her to be "confident".

Well how the fuck is she supposed to be confident when everyone is pointing out here flaws?! Constantly being compared to uncomaprable opponent....

Doesn't seem fair to the average womannn in my eyes.
To be constantly reminded you aren't perfect.
When in reality NOTHING is.
The only one who is perfect is God.

And you are his creation, so how could he make a mistake?
You are his artwork.
A pure materpiece.

FUCK what everyone else says.
DO what makes you happy! If you want to wear makeup or get plastic surgery--
do it for Y O U. not to make society will accept you.
not because for the first time in your life a guy will look at you like
that pretty little Barbie doll in the plastic box.

Who wants to be a Barbie, a doll anyway?
They aren't real.
But you--you my dear you are.
Your soul--that--that's beautiful. That's something you should embrace,
focus on. I don't care what anyone says--everyone is beautiful in their own way.

Fellas stop holding us up to this checklist as if we can live up to it naturally
and then you wanna get mad or rude when we don't. We aren't here to be your fuckin eyecandy. We have our own purpose. God has our own plan for us. And that is not to be told what we aren't everyday of our life. It's not to be a trophy wife, holding on to your arm.

It's so we can live our lives
with our flaws
n a t u r a l l y
we come here with, to fulfill our destiny.

I love my imperfections
and I won't become one of these Barbie doll robots
society is trying to convince REAL WOMEN to be.

I am an individual--not a product of your mass production of plastic aliens.
FUCK WHAT YOU HEARD. i love ME.

Love Con

Radar Radar
S P O T T E D
wedding band--automatic turnon
it's simply the fact that you're doin' wrong
eyes fixated
on what he has
she has
you--don't have

This is war, girl vs. boy
autopilot to destroy
someone else is happy and you get annoyed
feeding like a vampire on the power of
seduction
his soul's slow killer each time you touch him
causing his marriage a devestating eruption

A mistress with no disguise,
but still you stay up at night and cry.
Wonder why he won't leave his wife...
hotel rooms
you're his mobile f u c k
you think "he can't get enough",
you convince yourself you've won.


Storm cloud--hailing on sunshine
blocking out,
tha marriage's communication
as your hearts are racin'
in your lustful occupation
you're a professional at hatin'
No boob job, weave, or acrylic nails
but lemme test you on being real,
Ma'am, it seems you've failed.

Peace against the mistress' law
not even peace for yourself
Hard hat time
this is serious.
He loves her?
He must be delirious
b u l l d o z e r
d e m o l i t i o n

Boldly judgin
the pimps, hos and dealers cus you a Christian
Lemme shine some light on YOUR secrets
I swear that's you chasin
after the pastor, priest, and the deacon.
Want yo boss, even the manager at the grocery store.
creatin' chaos
you gotta have more, more, more
So many men
homewrecker galore
Drug addict--you need a fix
which man will be your next hit?

Desire to be with him "forever" is an illusion
Simply yearning satisfaction
that you can make it happen
your lips did some convincin' actin
continue to offer as his distraction
until he is served the papers--you ain't relaxin

You forced your way between em
just cus you know you can
you knew he couldn't resist--the science of a man
No matter how much he objected
you didn't give a damn
you were too determined to fulfill your envious plan

Affair of years ends their love in divorce
Sittin' on his arm; smirkin' while in court
slip away from him, put in the fork
Your deed is done
You're not in it for love
you're in it for fun
And the sexy game has just begun
Oh, Miss Jealousy...
You're an evil one.