do you wanna give up sometimes?
on me i mean...
like do you get tired of me
wish you weren't a part of this dream?
i don;t wanna cage you in
i don't want you to feel like you're in hell
do i Love you the wrong way
show me the way i should
i'll change for you
i promise i would
just to make you happy
i just want to see you smile
i love you that much
i hate that i do this to you
i hate that i bring you this pain
i hate that i make you feel this way

Dear Tekoa,

I have some words i want to share with you. they may make you cry but i truly think it's necessary for me to voice them to you. lately, i've been neglectful to you, i know this. please forgive me. forgive me for not staring into your eyes long enough for my soul to tell you i Love you. excuse me for putting you last in my Life. and excuse me for looking outside of myself to give you what you need. i apologize for the negative thoughts i may pollute your world with and i will try and be better at supporting & trusting you.

i know this is what you need, and i as i write this i wonder why it's taken me so long to stop and talk to you...

but now that i have, i need you to listen to me. like really listen to me. open up your heart & let this energy take over you.

you're beautiful, just the way you are. don't ever forget that. seriously. i know a lot of the time you don't feel that way, but you are. you have the most amazing Spirit that just radiates Love and touches everyone you meet. your passion and compassion are amazing. stop getting down on yourself for being so emotional, that is something to be proud of. so many people are scared of their feelings, they don't want to show them. at least you trust yourself enough to. Love yourself when you smile. Love yourself when you cry. Accept yourself at your weak moments and the other moments we try and turn from. hold your whole being in your heart & hug it. you have come so far, gained so much...it's amazing. see the power in your creativity and perspective on life. you make a beautiful difference, don't ever stop believing in yourself.

Love Infinitely,
Tekoa

the Beauty of Nature

Nature is God's gift to the world, really. we spend all of this money and time trying to find things that will give us Peace of Mind when the world is surrounded with it...the world is It. we're just so consumed in the world of consumption we don't get out into the Real World--the Natural World. We spend so many hours surrounded by the energy of concrete and walls that it starts to take a toll on our Spirits.

but Nature, speaks to us in Silence & gets us back on track with what our Souls want & yearn for. it's the quickest way to fill yourself up with Love. there's so much beauty in Nature, in the smallest Moment of being outside you can see something that makes you smile. this is what we learn our true lessons from. one thing i Love about Nature is it teaches you Life is. Nature doesn't label anything. it doesn't fight back anything; the trees take in the storms, the deer eventually accepts the fact it has to be a part of someone's meal just as the grass blades it ate earlier for breakfast. When we pick flowers, they don't fight back, they just accept with open arms. we don't see other flowers/ birds/ trees comparing themselves to each other, they just Live & let Be. in that...they are able to grow and nurture other life forms. I Love how nature recycles everything; everything has it's place and purpose. If you don't see purpose anywhere else you see it here. a fallen branch becomes part of a bird's nest for the next generation of baby birds. dying animals become part of nutrients in the dirt that allow the vegetation to grow. the Universe is so smart. All of the organisms have a beautiful mind. Ants can build boats to cross water, chimps make fishing poles and other tools; you see the true intelligence in Nature.

We don't take much time to see that in others or ourselves anymore because we are constantly telling ourselves or others what to be, but in nature no one tells anyone anything--and yet the cycle still continues in the right direction. I Love that. it's so beautiful.

Nature is so very humbling because it reminds us that we are a part of a whole. we can be so easily consumed in our ego the rest of the time that we forget there is a world bigger than just us, and not even the sense of Self as an individual but us in terms of species. We are a part of Nature, it's time we recognized our other members of our Spiritual family.

when we come back to Nature...it's like coming home.
actually, it is returning home.+++++

Creator

i try and tell you what you mean to me
it's like your Spirit sings to me
every Moment
every Day
i hear you
i feel you

you are part of me
you are me
inseparable
like my skin
you're all over me
i wouldn't even know who i was without you
i couldn't see
or comprehend when i look at me who i am without you
the yang to my yin
my spiritual skin
untouchable by damage
even when i get a scar
you heal me from the inside out
as i scar, more of you is me
you grow into me
replacing parts of you with updated versions
as they resurface on the surface of the skin
you caress with your eyes

so much i want to say to you
but i don't know how
so i write in secret
maybe you'll click on my blog and see it
fear leads me to remain quiet of my feelings at time
i don't want to overwhelm you
so i let it out here
and express my Love for you in the thin air
let it tell you in the Silence
confident nature will whisper this poetry into your soul
let the stars be the Infinite eyes of my Soul
windows of affection for You

seemingly obsessive, but in actuality
it's not that
easily misunderstood by those too scared to dive into the depth
of Love
so it seems, im living in a land of make believe
in actuality, traveling currents many are ignorant to
lack of Trust in Love
holding back...
to fearful to relax
into the One they Love
but see that isn't me

completely surrendered to the Universe because she has given me you
what is there to fear ...when i see the power of God every time i look at you
you taught me how to trust by just coming to me
accidental teacher of necessary lessons
you are that important
so essential to me

i feel like im being redundant
or repetitive
but i really don't give a fuck
you're not truly comprehending
like i want you to
i want you to feel it too
but maybe you can't feel what i feel for you
maybe this feeling....is something you can only feel for someone
that's the only way to understand
how i can feel this way
over
and over
in Love with every Moment we share
every insignificant thing people overlook
i am fascinated by

your unique mind
your misunderstood perspective
your pure heart
your passionate carelessness

the Peace you embody
nothing less than Godly
i hope every day you feel the throne I hold you on
you deserve your own Universe
one Higher than this One
that is where you Live...
in my eyes, where you belong
there's no doubt in my mind that
that's where you are from