i be going in circles...straight up circles
sometimes it's frustrating
but then i remember
circle is the the symbol
for completeness
wholeness
now when i keep goin in circular motion
revisiting familiar situations
im coming home
into
me

time of Being

some days i get lost in writing
other days i'm lost in Being
i don't want the thinking to take away from the Moment
but in this Moment
writing is the Moment
i think my writing can be quite divine because i leave it unedited
so in a sense it is Being
it's Being through me
no thoughts
it just flows
like the Ocean Be

ebbing the sand
kissing with nouns and adverbs
more Oneness reaching out for more Oneness
I think that's how Art should Be
you can't edit out parts
you have to let it Live like it is in the Moment
totally consumed in it All
it may seem misunderstood
but it wasn't when you wrote it
your soul understand
even if your body doesn't

Art is funny
how we can claim what Art is good or Bad
it all resonates with someone
maybe your heart can't feel it
but that doesn't make it any less
it wasn't made for you
but for the Creator
who Create
their Creation

don't chop and screw it
dance with cupid
when you can
and if you can't
do your own dance
on your own dance floor
one meant for You
we are all Artists inside
Creating in each Moment of our Lives
we Live with Art
We Live by Art
We Live in Art
Art is Life

how can you edit
how can you edit
how can you take away parts of Life
it seems it doesn't make sense
you can't take away the mistakes
that birthed the beautiful thought
that's like taking away stones on a path
no wonder so many of us get lost
while trying to travel through other people's mind frames
but yet how can a mind be framed
put into focus
when it encompasses the All?
We need it ALL
go give it to me
give me your pain and sorrow that led you to this happy poem
give me the times where you thought about ending your life
whoops! i meant sentence
when you thought of slicing your pen across a thought that
you felt did not fit in it
and yet there it is
staring back at you
how dare you tell it
that it's not good enough
victimize-r

let it go
and let it flow
in Art you don't think
you just do
much how Life should be Lived
surrender to your art
let it Be you

Silly thoughts.

I feel like i've learned and came to understand a lot about Life, and i'm going to try and share what exactly i have learned. it made be jumbled up, it may not make any sense, but here, now--with these symbols and fingertips i'll attempt to sing my song.

i've noticed almost everything seems like a paradox but maybe that's because we have been programmed to have a limited understanding. True perfection is imperfection, where become okay with our flaws...where we know just what it meant to be human. We take it all in, our sorrow, our happiness--they joy and pain & can truly BE WITH IT. We don't run away from our mistakes or beat ourselves up, but recognize that it's a part of life, of our experience here and it's okay. nothing we can do can make us any less than we have ever been. we will always be perfect, in this moment, in who we are right now.

Whether or not we see it is up to us... Whether or not we believe it, is up to us.

But it can be hard, it can be hard because many of us don't want to battle our egos. We don't want to come face to face with it. It can be out of ignorance, we may think our ego really is us and we could also be afraid... Afraid to let go, let go of thinking...to enter the unknown

but i don't think we can experience the intimate relationship with the divine without surrendering. We have to surrender our lives, our fears, our pre-cautions to Life...the Universe, whatever you want to call it and truly believe everything will Be as it should. It can be hard to believe this, but if we take a step back and look at nature we see the power in letting go is natural and necessary.

The seeds just Be with the divine plan.
The trees, the leaves,
the caterpillars, the eggs,
the ocean waves. . .
they don't question--they trust
and by trusting, allow the beautiful cycle to continue.
They serve their purpose.

We stop ourselves from serving our purpose because we think if we don't do something, it won't get done. It takes much self-reflection and time spent alone to be able to tell when we should let go, when our plan is being a part of the change.
WE all have different roles, the only way we can know what our role, our purpose is, is by listening to our inner souls--not our egos--our souls. The parts of us One with the Divine.

The power of trust and belief mean everything.
We enter into a dark, yet beautiful space in life where we don't know how life will turn out, what lies ahead but know it will be great. . . we don't care to know where we will go but are prepared for the journey. That's surrendering, leaving that egotistical desire to be in control one hundred percent of the time because you are in tune with the frequency that controls and creates beauty. and even if you experience destruction, you know that that Creator uses the destruction only to build something greater, whether it's appreciation or a magnificent poem. there's a path in all of it.

Not only do we surrender but we become aware that we need others just as others need us, we love and support others just as they love and support us. Again this comes from nature, where everything works with each other. Nothing can survive on it's own, even the Earth needs the Sun, The plants need the Earth, the animals need the plant, and so forth.

We depend on each other somewhat, and that's okay. It's okay to need others sometimes because they are just another face of God. But even so, we must always remember God dwells in us, and we can be our own Healers when necessary. We know when we need others and when we can heal ourselves, again by self-reflection. Spending time with our souls is so important.

Love manifests in all forms and so many of us can create these amazing relationships in the name of love if we open ourselves up to life.

Open...without judgment, constantly recognizing ourselves in others. This is the globe we are moving towards and it's perfect, just as this Moment is. Even if we complain that it isn't. All is well...and it always will be.

Dreamworld

these dreams they take me over, make me wonder who i really am. i lose myself, totally…then i find myself again. i keep wondering and wondering who is the person underneath the shell i see in the mirror…and when i close my eyes it’s like i know, i’m just like everyone else. i am everyone else, everything, every Being. every experience. superiority dissolves and judgment disappears, but somehow when i come back from the distant lands my souls journeys i forget this wisdom. my ego overtakes me and possesses my mind, body, and soul. patience is low. anger builds. understanding took a u-turn when my spirit went through the portal of illusion we like to call “reality”. it tells me it is me and we are separate beings. i stop recycling, i don’t give money to the homeless man on the street. i walk by with my misconceptions spoon-fed to me through society and how “anyone can be anything they want in this country”…”there is no excuse”. i feel less human. i feel like i’ve betrayed him, like i’ve betrayed my family and the person they raised me to be. but even them, even the loving mother i have let’s her demonic ego turn her from nurturing Goddess to negative assassin…killin with her words. i hope i get tired again, so i can return to my dreams. i can’t take the betrayal, the lies and disloyalty. the one that hurts the most is when i can observe it betraying myself… i just wanna go back to sleep, which is so ironic because the ones who say they are “conscious” tell us to WAKE UP! but i want to go back to sleep. the wisdom isn’t in the open eyes, but in the ones who close their eyes and dream. who learn to trust the Universe blindly, where they again become One with themselves.