Peace is grey
The honesty of a human Being. The sorrow, the joy, the mistakes, the choices, the path, the destiny, the spirituality, highs and the lows, the yin and the yang, the unbalanced balance, the imperfect perfection, the fucking Oneness.
Monday, July 30, 2012
casino
tipsy turvy
late night screens
best friends with the send key
just another motherfucker to pass the time
better find your balance
outside inside
mental interruptions
electronic theme song holding down reality
kids play inside heart shaped-dice
unaware of the game being rolled
moved
like
marbles
lost in the sandbox
the kids never care about finding
the bell has rung
FREEZE!
(or it'll be detention)
and class has started again
just enough to step
in line
we go
march march march
apart
don't touch anyone else
cooties may consume you
"hands to ourselves!"
you'd never be promoted to the next grade if they do
my my my
have we forgotten to tie our shoe?
don't trip
daydreams of basketballs bouncing interrupt class productivity
kiss away the lesson for child's play
ring ring
send key
open sesame to
a can of fried worms we're too afraid to eat
so we just sit there and let it stink
the stench lingering
soaked up by the moment
and the other moments that are forced to share in the scent
soaked into playschool jeans and recess hair
read
click
read
click
read
flip a page at the library
steal the books you really wanna checkout
since the librarian says you can only checkout three
knots knots
piles of excuses
blame it on the fact that they're young
blame it on the fact that they're "free"
Monday, October 24, 2011
Quiet
Words I'm too afraid to say
so i hide them
in between the perpendicular walls
that give our rooms its corners
I hope they don't escape.
The closet was too full of clothes
to hide these invasive ideas any better
My mind asked me if it could borrow them
it liked obsessing over whatifs and couldbes
I ignored it's call
so it scratched the highways of my brain
until I got a headache
it's laughter tore me down as I walked with a limo
hoping these thoughts leave me be
but i see them make love
with the spiders in our bed
and slap me in the face with Charlotte's web
Admiring the beautiful creation
it engulfs my soul
mummifying my Being.
Taped eyelids forced to
meet words
in concrete form
leave me
leave me
But please, don't--I need you!
Do I?
Never knew words could take over reality
but they constantly trap me
Escape turns into a trap itself
the constant effort to maintain Freedom
Do I own the work ethic
necessary for this required strength?
The alphabet's whispers
sound like a heavy metal concert
sexing with my subconscious
Fleeting anti-abortionist beliefs
Kill the spawn
no more kingdom
no more kin
the end
finally
Internal work trying to decipher
delusion from illusion
but they all look the same
identical twins, that probably
changed places
leave me in an insecure place
I don't want to hear these thoughts
so instead they assault me
Can I call the police on my abusive ego?
Can I go to court? I need a restraining order
The judge hates me they say, so there's no use
Submit to the system
Revolt! Revolt!
Begging for an internal revolution
my body throws up
Misunderstanding
More abuse
Leave me
Leave me
Just once,
I want to be abandoned
so i hide them
in between the perpendicular walls
that give our rooms its corners
I hope they don't escape.
The closet was too full of clothes
to hide these invasive ideas any better
My mind asked me if it could borrow them
it liked obsessing over whatifs and couldbes
I ignored it's call
so it scratched the highways of my brain
until I got a headache
it's laughter tore me down as I walked with a limo
hoping these thoughts leave me be
but i see them make love
with the spiders in our bed
and slap me in the face with Charlotte's web
Admiring the beautiful creation
it engulfs my soul
mummifying my Being.
Taped eyelids forced to
meet words
in concrete form
leave me
leave me
But please, don't--I need you!
Do I?
Never knew words could take over reality
but they constantly trap me
Escape turns into a trap itself
the constant effort to maintain Freedom
Do I own the work ethic
necessary for this required strength?
The alphabet's whispers
sound like a heavy metal concert
sexing with my subconscious
Fleeting anti-abortionist beliefs
Kill the spawn
no more kingdom
no more kin
the end
finally
Internal work trying to decipher
delusion from illusion
but they all look the same
identical twins, that probably
changed places
leave me in an insecure place
I don't want to hear these thoughts
so instead they assault me
Can I call the police on my abusive ego?
Can I go to court? I need a restraining order
The judge hates me they say, so there's no use
Submit to the system
Revolt! Revolt!
Begging for an internal revolution
my body throws up
Misunderstanding
More abuse
Leave me
Leave me
Just once,
I want to be abandoned
Daydreams live somewhere
Today I went on a roadtrip
somewhere on a beach.
the car ride there I couldn't
help but admire the trees
In my mind we held a conversation
I wanted to invite them to the ocean
see if they'd like to play volleyball
and ride a roller-coaster,
their leaves just swayed in the wind
their trunks stood strong.
I wanted to see them bend
and buckle themselves into their seat-belts
with their leafy decorated hands
I don't know if they'll fit
I don't know if they're too high
I'm interested in the stories they may share
and dream about the fun they
might be able to add
A car full of flowers
and trees
communing until they reach to the beach
how crazy am i for thinking this?
how crazy am i for entertaining this idea?
how crazy am i for wanting this?
Questions cause my daydream to become hazy
back to the leftside of the brain
back to prison
back to limitations
Forced sanity
because all the dreamers are insane
somewhere on a beach.
the car ride there I couldn't
help but admire the trees
In my mind we held a conversation
I wanted to invite them to the ocean
see if they'd like to play volleyball
and ride a roller-coaster,
their leaves just swayed in the wind
their trunks stood strong.
I wanted to see them bend
and buckle themselves into their seat-belts
with their leafy decorated hands
I don't know if they'll fit
I don't know if they're too high
I'm interested in the stories they may share
and dream about the fun they
might be able to add
A car full of flowers
and trees
communing until they reach to the beach
how crazy am i for thinking this?
how crazy am i for entertaining this idea?
how crazy am i for wanting this?
Questions cause my daydream to become hazy
back to the leftside of the brain
back to prison
back to limitations
Forced sanity
because all the dreamers are insane
Cold Apology
Imsorry babygirl
I can't play with you,
too busy dropping bombs.
I know you want to blow your bubbles
but the sounds of the battle
disturb your ability to enter that childhood fantasy world.
Imsorry you can't play with your dolls
outside of your house
but I'd rather you be safe
inside the rubble of your old home
than a victim of gigantic boots scurrying, but accidentally
leaving shoeprints on
your face
your feet
that they did not see
Imsorry adults are so dumb
that we forget to have fun
and now you have to suffer
this is how the potty-trained elite play
turn games from fantasy to reality
but it seems like we only manifest our darkest ideas
and leave the beauty behind
in our diapers
babygirl promise you won't grow up to be like us.
Remember your experience
and assure the future, you learn
from our insensitive mistakes
we memorized our biased history
only to repeat it
it doesn't have to to be like this
Babygirl, promise when you grow up
you won't rob a child's youth
that you won't steal their innocence
Promise me
you'll be a kid forever
and create a world with Peter Pan
Neverland, but Foreverland
Babygirl, Imsorry we're too busy stuck in the competition
we teach you to destroy your friends for your own gain
Imsorry we create paradoxes
where we educate you in school to be one way
cooperate, remain nonviolent
but as you grow older, we tell you to peel off that positive skin
Imsorry for all the lies and
unnecessary fights
sorry we argue about Santa Claus' existence
but tell you to have an imagination
Imsorry we instill in you that logic is greater than feeling
and to ignore your intuition
Imsorry classrooms are filled with limitless inspirational quotes
but we tell you that you're fininte, limited, and destined to fail as you grow older
Imsorry we confuse you
But please try to understand
we are indeed leaders,
confused within.
try to understand
try to understand
we were only raised by people who had their innocence stolen too
No, sweetie it's not an excuse,
just an explanation so you can
See Love
I hope you Be Love
more than we are currently Being
we are fools, fools of adulthood
you are Love
don't let us change you
remain true to your pureness
even if the world seems completely opposite than how you feel it should be
sometimes it can feel like that
but Love is always the answer
so answer that to any question;
you'll always be right
A light is always with you
you can never be lost
don't be afraid to close your eyes and look within
don't turn your head our direction
we may not be the best example
imsorry for that
imsorry we have forgotten how to listen to our own wisdom
and leave you with this world of constant war
even if it seems you will always be the same
remember you hold the power to create change
imsorry babygirl
that we're changing the wrong things
i hope you can forgive me
can forgive us
and see that you are Love
We are Love
Babygirl, Imsorry
Just return to your mind and build something beautiful
while we destroy your world
think of all the positive things in life
and find gratitude
even if
you feel there's no reason for it to exist
I know our foolish game has left you
home-less
parent-less
emotion-less
and leg-less
but remember weresorry
Her bloodfilled tears
streamed down her face like
an emotionally confused waterfall
ejecting connection with us
Stars in her eyes fade to blackness
Zombielike, she moves
I hope we haven't lost her.
Babygirl I love you!
but her Spirit remains mute
I can't play with you,
too busy dropping bombs.
I know you want to blow your bubbles
but the sounds of the battle
disturb your ability to enter that childhood fantasy world.
Imsorry you can't play with your dolls
outside of your house
but I'd rather you be safe
inside the rubble of your old home
than a victim of gigantic boots scurrying, but accidentally
leaving shoeprints on
your face
your feet
that they did not see
Imsorry adults are so dumb
that we forget to have fun
and now you have to suffer
this is how the potty-trained elite play
turn games from fantasy to reality
but it seems like we only manifest our darkest ideas
and leave the beauty behind
in our diapers
babygirl promise you won't grow up to be like us.
Remember your experience
and assure the future, you learn
from our insensitive mistakes
we memorized our biased history
only to repeat it
it doesn't have to to be like this
Babygirl, promise when you grow up
you won't rob a child's youth
that you won't steal their innocence
Promise me
you'll be a kid forever
and create a world with Peter Pan
Neverland, but Foreverland
Babygirl, Imsorry we're too busy stuck in the competition
we teach you to destroy your friends for your own gain
Imsorry we create paradoxes
where we educate you in school to be one way
cooperate, remain nonviolent
but as you grow older, we tell you to peel off that positive skin
Imsorry for all the lies and
unnecessary fights
sorry we argue about Santa Claus' existence
but tell you to have an imagination
Imsorry we instill in you that logic is greater than feeling
and to ignore your intuition
Imsorry classrooms are filled with limitless inspirational quotes
but we tell you that you're fininte, limited, and destined to fail as you grow older
Imsorry we confuse you
But please try to understand
we are indeed leaders,
confused within.
try to understand
try to understand
we were only raised by people who had their innocence stolen too
No, sweetie it's not an excuse,
just an explanation so you can
See Love
I hope you Be Love
more than we are currently Being
we are fools, fools of adulthood
you are Love
don't let us change you
remain true to your pureness
even if the world seems completely opposite than how you feel it should be
sometimes it can feel like that
but Love is always the answer
so answer that to any question;
you'll always be right
A light is always with you
you can never be lost
don't be afraid to close your eyes and look within
don't turn your head our direction
we may not be the best example
imsorry for that
imsorry we have forgotten how to listen to our own wisdom
and leave you with this world of constant war
even if it seems you will always be the same
remember you hold the power to create change
imsorry babygirl
that we're changing the wrong things
i hope you can forgive me
can forgive us
and see that you are Love
We are Love
Babygirl, Imsorry
Just return to your mind and build something beautiful
while we destroy your world
think of all the positive things in life
and find gratitude
even if
you feel there's no reason for it to exist
I know our foolish game has left you
home-less
parent-less
emotion-less
and leg-less
but remember weresorry
Her bloodfilled tears
streamed down her face like
an emotionally confused waterfall
ejecting connection with us
Stars in her eyes fade to blackness
Zombielike, she moves
I hope we haven't lost her.
Babygirl I love you!
but her Spirit remains mute
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